The theme of my life lately, seems to be “revelations”. Over and over again, things that were hidden are being brought to light and I am having to choose, again and again, where I stand, what I will allow, and most importantly, what I choose to believe.
I have, on several occasions mentioned Graham Cooke’s words on good and bad days. He says there are no good or bad days, there are only days of God’s grace. Each day, we have either the grace to endure or enjoy what is happening.
We all want those days of grace to enjoy what is happening, but what about those days that find you clinging to His grace to endure? What do those days look like for you? Do they find you cold, withdrawn, angry and or pitiful? Do you just get stuck and stay in that place far longer than needed? Did you know that you don’t even have to stay there? I am seeking to leave those ways of wallowing in self pity for extended periods, far in the past.
Instead, I am asking the Lord how to navigate through it all. I’m asking trusted others to pray as well. I am also actively looking for Him even in the midst of my pain and as I always say, He isn’t hiding.
I am thanking Him for revelation. I believe exposure is good. How else can one move forward if they are completely in the dark? Darkness makes for some pretty difficult navigation. I want His light shining on all that concerns me. I don’t want my head in the sand. He said His grace is sufficient for me and that His power is made perfect in my weakness. He also said He won’t give me more than I can bare. I admit to questioning this truth several times in my life.
Regardless, the fact remains, that I am here and so is He, and, through fun times and sad, I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Eventually, I will afford myself time and space to have a good, cleansing cry, but in the meantime, I will thank God for so many things; I thank Him for revelation, for surrounding me, for comforting me, for loving me and more. I will press onward with the joy that comes from being in His presence. I’m so grateful it is always available to me in an unlimited manner. I will rejoice because I am being made stronger, more wise and I have lots of help and options. I will use His grace to help me endure and enjoy all that is happening.